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Tuesday, July 21, 2009
new life
alright i've come to the conclusion that it's time for me to just start fresh and begin my new life. As most of you know....well all 4 of you on my other blog....that i am separating myself from my husband. this has honestly had to be the HARDEST thing i have ever had to do. the fact that i am dropping my life and going into a whole new world of hell of trying to just get through the normal day to day living knowing that you are just another statistic on the marriage poll, that you failed, that no matter what you did to try to make things work all that happened is heartache and pain. Something I like to call DO-DO! The something that never gets better no matter what way you look at it....it's just in the end...poop!!!
what i know now is that this choice that i have made is the first step in my future. it is the first step to a happier and more productive life. this one choice has saved me from a life that i had no control over. it was like driving down a very steep hill with no breaks, just praying that when you got to the bottom you'll still be in enough pieces that you will be able to salvage what is left to get out of the wreckage.
i have done a lot of stupid things in my time on this earth, and i have to say by far the dumbest thing i did was neglect my family and friends. i left behind everybody who has stuck by my side and has seen me through it all, and for that i can't apologize enough. i love you with all my heart and i pray that one day i will be able to make it up to all of you. and one day i hope that i will be able to show you my thanks for being there for me.
like i said before this is the worst thing any married couple can go through and i am so thankful that i have you to help me through it. but enough about this....Monica is back!
what i know now is that this choice that i have made is the first step in my future. it is the first step to a happier and more productive life. this one choice has saved me from a life that i had no control over. it was like driving down a very steep hill with no breaks, just praying that when you got to the bottom you'll still be in enough pieces that you will be able to salvage what is left to get out of the wreckage.
i have done a lot of stupid things in my time on this earth, and i have to say by far the dumbest thing i did was neglect my family and friends. i left behind everybody who has stuck by my side and has seen me through it all, and for that i can't apologize enough. i love you with all my heart and i pray that one day i will be able to make it up to all of you. and one day i hope that i will be able to show you my thanks for being there for me.
like i said before this is the worst thing any married couple can go through and i am so thankful that i have you to help me through it. but enough about this....Monica is back!
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